Katie Untranslated

Ahem...starting to feel like a broken record...all good plans, suddenly up in smoke. I had such a good plan this week and I've gone straight back into binge mode!!  Plus cheeky wine and beer made a reappearance.  So much so I had horrendous heartburn on Tuesday, I think that is going to be the turning point to change.  I used to get heartburn regularly before I started Slimming World, and eating healthfully got rid of it.  I cannot go back to living like that again. Yesterday (weigh in day) I decided to start afresh, after going to bed the night before feeling sorry for myself as I had no rennies! I woke up this morning and prepared my breakfast to take to work, it was a beetroot wrap with fried eggs, fried mushrooms (both fried in frylight), and baked beans.   It was a massive breakfast, which I prefer on weigh day as sometimes I skip lunch...bad I know...one of those stupid things I accidentally did once (too busy to eat) and carried on.  Toda...

I don't want to hide the truth, the last few weeks have been a struggle.  I'm still suffering with a cold and it's not budging yet (mine usually last a month).    I started writing this Sunday night, I had worked a 6 day week, I had binged on McDonald's the day before, and I had drank a bottle of red wine.  It took until Monday night to get all the words out. This weekend I set a new sleep record, I slept from 3:30pm Saturday afternoon until 10:30am Sunday morning, that tired that my body decided I needed 19 hours!   I even passed out in my make up, I now have a grizzly spot to thank for that (sorry Mrs Hirons...if you know, you know). I feel that my struggle with food is similar to an alcoholic.  I eat in secret, I hide food, I lie about the food I eat/have eaten.   It's like a compulsion, I know I shouldn't be doing it, and it's more than just greed.   It feels like a form of socially acceptable self harming.  I sho...